A lot of mindless things lately…

Cleaning and re-arranging.
Folding and re-arranging.
Sewing and re-arranging.

Lots of hanging out and playing, mindless playing, with this lady lately…

 

When I say mindless, I don’t mean that I’m not there mentally. That I’m not thinking about what I’m doing or enjoying it. I’m actually completely there. Completely and 110% there. That way my mind doesn’t wander off…

off to think about the baby that we would be welcoming into our family.
off to think about the room that’s not a nursery for a newborn but a playroom for the kiddo.
off to think about how we would have been a family of four instead of a family of three.

It’s hard to think that 9 months crept along and yet ran by me already.

I thank God much more often and much more sincerely for the kiddo as these months have gone by.
Her laugh. Oh how it fills my heart to the point that my eyes overflow with tears.
Her smile. Her infectious smile that I get so completely lost in.
Her beautiful curls that appear magically when her hair starts to dry from being stick straight wet.

 

We may be a family of three, but I’ve never felt so lucky and so blessed in my life. We’ll meet our number four one day. One beautiful and glorious day. But until then, I thank God for this kiddo who loves glitter and pink. Who calls Crixus, “Christmas”. Who loves cottage cheese and green apples just as much as I do. I thank God.

 

Tags: blessings, love, miscarriage, thankfulness, the fam

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